WARNING!!! THE FOLLOWING ENTRY HAS EXPLICIT LANGUAGE!!! IDK LEAVE OR KEEP READING OR WHATEVER!!!
i did it, i just re-did my other site. i couldn't get what i wrote the other day out of my head, so i just went ahead and fixed up stuff on the other site. the problem is... i am an idiot. LOL. i had accidentally gotten rid of the other posts i had up there for a bit, i completely glazed over the option to CHANGE MY MIND, and now the posts i wrote on my friend ray's birthday, the vajont world, and how much i love starwood hollow (wispy woo world on vrchat btw check that shit out) just no longer exist. yeah. i'm an idiot. oops lol.
i am 'justaam'. it's hard to really explain what that means to people without sounding like a pretentious, overzealous, arrogant motherfucker i think. 'justaam' simply stands for 'just another anime man', but i also have figured out that it could doubly mean 'just another asian man' and also 'just asian american, man' and i honestly could go on and on and on and still find it fucking amusing. it also just works as a sentence, like 'i just (a)am'. because i kinda (a)am!!! fuck lmao ok. i AM 'justaam', but im also gojo and i am also lar and i just didn't want to use my real name when putting my work out there for some reason. it's honestly more of something for me to hide behind. the name 'lar' doesn't sound that cool, it kinda sounds ambiguous, and when there's artists out there named DJ HARDCOCK you kinda need to find a way to stand out. i am admittedly insecure of my real name, in the sense that i fear that it's not a name people really expect to be mine, but i also don't wanna change my name at all. i like it. it's a variant of a name from my late aunt and namesake. in my own way, keeping this name is how i honor her. eventually i'd like to be less insecure of my name. but for now, the artist in me uses names like 'justaam' as a shield - a shield to hide the remnants of a man still finding his way. type shit. please feel free to click off this site right now LOL.
this domain was my first, and justaam was my second. i like having two separate sites, one more for my vr writing and design stuff and one for weird rambly entries like this. to be quite fair, i think the other site will still have a rambly blog just because that's my nature, but it will probably not have me cussing at random points like within this entry haha. i have been keeping a log of things i have attended throughout the year and i'm really excited to eventually draft up my 'year in review' post for that site! it feels like it would fit more over there. as for here at the end of the year, i might just make a list of my most listened albums or something. or maybe favorite photos i've taken for each month! lots of ideas.
thanks for reading! i apologize for the incoherentness of it all, but that's also just me :p take care!